I knew since the day you guys both left this world that it would be hard to accept and overcome the pain. I smile each day for the both of you but cry because not every second is as easy. Support is something i hold onto and my friends family and beautiful girlfriend help every step of the way. Part of me is very blessed but the other part lives a life of sorrow. The emotions that come in and out of my daily life often are often close to sending me over the edge but than again i stop and think about all those who are rooting for me. Some people are just born with tradegy in their blood but i refuse to let that stop me. Stay strong and live on. Be a role model and help save somebody

I like dubstep, lil wayne, tye dye, monster energy drinks, windows down crusing, mcdonalds, ice cream, photography, writing, alone time by the river, long meaningful text, i love you’s, old hollywood, vintage, vans/keds, my future smart phone, cuddling, fishing, jamming, living life to the fullest, dressing however i feel that day, drake, nickelback, marilyn monroe, megan fox, tattoos, piercings, gauges, hello kitty, coloring, spongebob, leggins, stuffed animals, my mom, sour patch kids, filled twizzlers, heart to hearts, my job, my car, linkin park, slightly stoopid, bass, girls, peace signs, freedom, choice, late nights, sleep, tanning, swimming, laughing, smiling, joking, character pajama pants, doughnuts, snack wraps, mcflurries, my bed, audrey hepburn, savannah georgia, north carolina, lazer tag, the titanic, space jam, friday, cartoons, victoria secret, UC/bearcats, NC state, journalism, twitter, facebook, tumblr, blogging, lava lamps, miracles, despicable me, build a bear, bdubs, fake glasses, hair extensions, red hair, when life goes the right way

I think that may just sum it up <3

I’ll never understand why this happened, I never do but I do know that there’s a reason for everything. Words can’t express the pain I feel or the things running through my head but I am thankful for all the support from family and friends. Without all that I wouldn’t have been able to get through this. I know one day we will meet again and ill be able to hug you again and feel comfort. I know your in a better place now and id much rather you be with god than be in a world that’s cruel. You had me wrapped around your finger, a million times and as sad as it is that I wont be able to watch you grow up, ill cherish the moments I did get to spend with you and ill always see you as my little ray of sunshine. R.I.P to the most precious little girl god put on this earth.

I’ve just finally gotten the chance to be who I truly am and it’s felt amazing. Im not the girly type, never have been and just because im showing that now doesn’t mean i’ve changed. Im happier, i feel more alive and i feel like people are finally getting to know the girl I was my freshmen year of highschool. Im done feeling uncomfortable and putting on a front and quite frankly im done with hearing “you’ve changed” .. no I havent, im just finally showing everyone who I really am.

never forget that

I feel like im drowning in thoughts I can’t process. How do you tell someone something you want to say but you don’t know how to say it. I’ve let people walk all over me and im ready to stand up and brush off the foot prints. I now see what it’s like to grow up and mature but not everyone around me is growing up. The changes im going through have made me re-think a lot of the choices I have made. I can’t open myself up enough to express what i feel or what im thinking and thats not normal for me. I feel like i could type forever but right now im at a blank.